Week Five: God’s Call to Me
Throwing off his cloak.
What do you want me to do for you.
You have seen well.
I am watching over my Word to perform it.
I know the plans I have for you:
a future, a hope…
Seek Me with all your heart.
Do not be afraid
To build and to plant
Put down your net for a catch
Do not be afraid
What are you looking for?
What do I need to throw off?
When blind Bartimeaus heard that Jesus was calling in him response to his cry, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” he threw off his clock, sprang up and ran to Jesus. He ran to Jesus because he anticipated being healed, of being able to see again. For whatever reason he had, Bartimeaus felt he need to get rid of his cloak in order to come to Jesus. And he did. He threw it off.
What do I need to throw off in order to follow Jesus where he leads me? I let this question linger with me for the week. This was revealed at the end of the week.
During the week, these words came to me, spoken by the Holy Spirit in the silence. You have seen well. I am watching over my word to perform it. I know the plans I have for you…a future…a hope…Seek Me with all your heart. Do not be afraid to build and to plant. Put down your net for a catch. Do not be afraid. What are you looking for?
What do I need to throw off?
If uncertainty is unacceptable to me,
it turns into fear.
If uncertainty is perfectly acceptable to me,
it turns into increased aliveness,alertness,and creativity.
~Eckhart Tolle (quote is personalized)
Certainty. If uncertainty is unacceptable to me it turns into fear. My need for certainty creates an impossible situation for a life a faith. Because underlying faith is the trust in God that what is uncertain to me will work out for the good.
In response to the word, “You have seen well,” came this thought:
What needs to happen will emerge. Wait for it. There is no need to be anxious about what will happen of being ready. It will be revealed. Be still. Look for the revealing.
I can trust my ‘seeing well’ under the anointing of the Holy Spirit, that in any given moment I will perceive that which I need to perceive and respond perfectly to that situation. However, my need for certainty will undermine this ‘seeing’. Instead, I will be locked in fear and will misperceive what is actually happening.
Certainty also gets in the way of my creativity. The creative process is a journey toward and into the unknown, discovering what is waiting to be revealed. I have to be ok with the uncertainty of what will emerge. The revealing can only happen when I am at peace with the uncertainty. Because certainty will lock up the creative process in fear. I cannot begin the creative process with a certainty of what will come forth or how it will be received. Both are out of my control. I have to accept uncertainty as an integral part of the creative process.
And so, I allow myself to be in the space of uncertainty. And in that space I enjoy the awareness, aliveness, alertness and attentiveness to what is happening in this present moment, for it is an encounter with the living God!
Journey to BE Still 